She described her academic life in high school as "very dedicated, very studious, very disciplined" but also "a bit insecure": "I used to get made fun of for being either too provocative or too eccentric, so I started to tone it down. I didn't fit in, and I felt like a freak." Acquaintances dispute that she did not fit in at school. "She had a core group of friends; she was a good student. She liked boys a lot, but singing was No. 1," recalled a former high school classmate.[
People see us in one way, but inside we have our own perceptions. We take our experiences and bundle them up to create sense of self. In our teenage years, we've only just begun to explore it.
But what if this early interior sense of self is our roadmap? The kernel of who or what we are going to become? For me, I always felt a little different, like an observer, someone who sat outside and looked in. As an adult, it makes sense to me that I've become an artist and a writer. Both are professions that involve observation and both have, at times, made me feel a bit like an anomaly (yeah, figuring out I preferred a wife to a husband was part of it, too).
Maybe when we're fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, that little voice inside of us, the one that thinks we know who we are, is right. And if we can listen to it sooner than later, we might save ourselves a lot of heartache. And then we could just stand up and proclaim "Cause baby, I was born this way!"